Around 18 months ago I wrote a post titled 'Hometown' where I spoke rather poetically about the prospect of leaving my hometown to create a new home at University. Little did I know what the next 18 months would bring but I thought I'd revisit the idea and express how I feel now about my hometown...
Top: Charity Shop // Shorts: Jeans cut into shorts // Shoes: Nike Air Force 1 // Belt: Matalan 

When I walk through these fields and gaze at these views, I know that I'm at home. 
So many moments and memories have been consumed in this one vision, it makes me feel a sense of accomplishment. 
This is where I've come from, where I am and where I belong for now.
I want to sit and look out at my home, really see my world for what it is. 
Hear every noise, smell every scent and notice where I really am. 
I used to do that, to sit and be but my mind was always thinking of my future home whilst my heart silently ached at the thought.
 I felt like I was so ready to go but reality taught me I wasn't.

18 year old me dying to escape to build a home somewhere else, she was fearless, unstoppable.

A year onwards and these views mean a whole lot more to me than to the girl I was. 
This is the place that has carried me through life, the setting to all my triumphs and failures. It has shaped me and it will always be shaping me into the person I am because every day it brings something new. 
I love this view and everything it captures within it, it's my favourite view. 
But I wanted to get away from it so badly that fate interfered and stopped that from happening and I felt helpless. Now I believe everything happens for a reason and the reason was I wasn't ready. 
Fate made me stay so I could fall and rise again to make me understand the person I truly am today. It made me grateful for my home, my hometown and made me no longer want to escape but to simply move on in my own time. 

As I sit here today I am really content with life. 
I no longer feel as if I'm wishing it away or wanting a life that's not mine, I'm enjoying being me and everything that that means. I appreciate my life and that's something that has taken me a long time to say. 
Things will happen when they happen, changes are inevitable and life is so so precious so love your home or find a home to love.

Lucy Jane