I contemplated writing some deep post about 2018, touching on all my struggles and all my achievements but after procrastinating for waaaaay too long I decided not to.
 2018 was a beautiful whirlwind, I think that's the perfect way to describe it. There were good and there were bad but I don't want to dwell on those moments. Yes I agree, it's nice to reflect but I've given up living in the past or living by the hope of the future and 2019 is all about living in the now.
Instead I wanted to post about my 90s New Years and have a chat about why 2019 is so exciting to me!!!

My New Years Eve was the best New Years Eve I've ever had and I hope it's set the theme for the rest of 2019. There was good food, good friends, good music and I had an absolute ball as well as getting slightly too drunk. Everyone made an effort to dress up which looked so fab, there's nothing more that pleases me than when a fancy dress party goes to plan. I felt very grateful to be entering 2019 with all those people by my side and with the biggest smile on my face!
I said 'Thank U, next...' to 2018 and welcomed 2019 with anticipation...

Now there are a few reasons why I feel like 2019 is going to be a milestone year for me...
1. I'm hoping this is the year I can reach remission with my Ulcerative Colitis
2. I turn 20 which means so long teenage years!
 3. I should get to University in September and this is the most exciting thing EVER

If you're unaware of my life, I was supposed to get to the University for the Creative Arts down in London to study Fashion Management and Marketing in September 2017. Unfortunately, I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis and ever since then I've had to defer my place as I wasn't healthy enough to move out and go to Uni. If 2019 is the year my medication works then 2019 will be the year I finally get to University and that fills me with so much joy. 

I've always been someone who wanted to go to Uni, I wanted to go to London and I wanted to study fashion. The fact my dreams have been put on hold has been so frustrating, constantly feeling as if you're waiting to get your life back isn't a healthy way to live. Over the past 18 months I've learnt to live with it, accepting whatever life throws at me and growing from my experiences. 
University is freedom, it's independence and it's me FINALLY studying my favourite thing in the world surrounded by other people who adore fashion as much as me. 
It is where I need to get to.

So to Lucy Jane reading this in 2020, I hope whatever you've done this year you've made yourself proud and that you haven't given up on your hopes and dreams. 
If you live everyday with love, gratitude, strength and an endless smile on your face then 2019 won't work out too bad...

Lucy Jane