Helloooooo,
I don't really know where to start with this post or what to call this post but I felt I needed to write it.
Blogging has always been a creative outlet for me, a way to express my inner thoughts and ideas into the outside world. It was a platform to meet people with shared interest, hobbies and browse through this huge, creative community and be constantly inspired!
My blog was 100% whole-heartedly a representation of me and I adored that, I adored everything about blogging.
Over the past few months my admiration turned to critique and I found it really hard to create content that I genuinely loved. I never felt inspired by other creators, I never felt happy with the end product and I never felt quite sure of what message I wanted to be portraying on my blog.
To sum it up my life has been all over the place and hence my blog as been all over the place...
2019 took me by surprise and I didn't really have the time or energy to figure out in what direction I wanted this year to take me in regards to blogging, my career and life in general. My main focus is getting my health better which of course, is so important but sometimes I think I forget that life still holds more to it than my illness improving.
So now that I'm here and I'm admitting that this whole blogging thing hasn't really felt like me recently, I want to start putting in the time and effort to build something that I'm proud of.
I want to write about the little things, share what makes me smile and what keeps me going and not worry whether it's 'good enough'.
I want to share my favourite things and really feel like I've found favourites again rather than just ambling through life with very little passion.
I want to shoot different people, show different styles and share my love for photography and all things creative.
I want to use my voice to talk about sustainable fashion, try and influence people to think differently and make small changes.
I want to talk more often about my Ulcerative Colitis and share more of my journey as it's so fucking hard!! I'd grown scared of sharing things recently but it's time to just do it.
I simply want my blog to not feel 'perfect' or 'put together', I want it to be a mish mash of random life happenings that I fancy sharing with you lovely people and that is all!!
The truth is my blog feels like a true representation of me, when I'm loving me, I'm loving my blog and when I'm struggling, I'm struggling with my blog. I hope I can get this journey back on track and fall back in love with me, myself and my blog...
Lucy Jane